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I'm a relatively good girl. I don't eat my veggies. I have an absolutely sweet tooth and I like chocolates and candy floss although they make me look kiddish most of the time. I absolutely adore babies and toddlers and I often go gaga over them. This is most probably the only place where you might get to know me better if you're interested that is :) What everything means behind a smile. Have fun reading.

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Taking a midnight train going anywhere but here.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
These few days hasn't been good for me. It was and still is filled with many uncertainties and obstacles ahead of me. I don't know what to do now. Turning left or right doesn't feel right somehow, and being offered the offer that I thought I wanted didn't seem to appeal to me anymore. It feels more of a dread for it to really have to come true.

I'm again at a point whereby I prefer to be isolated than in a crowd. Because in order not to dampen other's sprits, at some point, I always force myself to smile until I get so sick of it. I don't know where I'm going nor do I know what I want anymore. It's just that, I know I need help and someone to talk to but the problem is, I don't know who. Well, I can't be bothered to figure that out anymore cause maybe things might figure/ work themselves out. In the meantime, any kind soul that happens to read this post, and you think that you might be able to help me with some of my study subjects, please text me kay. I'm in need of help. Though it's stupid for me to post it here but I just don't know who else to ask right now. So yeap.

I really want to take a midnight train going anywhere. Too bad, it doesn't operate in Singapore. Because, right now, I really need to go somewhere far far away where I can just sort out my own thoughts. Taking a midnight train going anywhere or to a seaside might not be such a bad idea cause you may get to see the sunrise when you reach there.


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